I miss my sweetheart. He has been traveling in warmer climes since mid-January. After last year's bout with double pneumonia and a pulmonary embollism, the doctor "ordered" him to get out of the cold wet Mount Shasta winters. He'll be home in a couple of weeks, and I am anxiously looking forward feeling his warm smile, holding him and hearing all about his adventures on the open road.
John's and my story is all about two souls working, really working, at being honest and "real" with one another. Working from the foundation of genuine friendship and love. Love that is real. Velveteen Rabbit kind of real. And while we both lament not coming together during our high school years, we all know that to ponder and grieve over such things is folly. Our being together now is all that matters. We are grounded in a Love and Contentment that is very sweet and precious. We are easy with each other; encouraging, and giving one another the time, space, and support necessary to process life as it happens. We are also tough on each other, not allowing the other to slip into "games people play".
I just like to be with him. We can be doing absolutely nothing, but to be near him makes me feel happy, content, safe, and well...just wonderfully joyful. It is a peaceful feeling. And just like the first time I hugged him at Don and Jan Ballerini's wedding in June of 2002, I can still say, "I'm finally home."
